I love myself!

She woke up one day and realized the pain had made her stronger...

Constantly defying the odds taught her to trust her struggle... & it didn't matter who wasn't there to love her because she'd learned to love herself...

Suicide

Some people simply feel safe in all their misery...

Some are comforted by the certainty of uncertainty 

And consistency of inconsistency 

Some are content with dwelling in the depths of insanity...

Just because they fear nothing better exists...

And that must be a very awful life

Spunky Tai

I'm afraid of humanity
and this new world era...of normalized insanity
Our means of fulfillment no longer speak language conducive to our hearts
We feed our ego's materialistic desire
and conspire
against our spirits
No one wants a fist full of feelings
give me one with cash
cuz I can cry myself to sleep
but, still
i gotta pay this
light & gas

I'm afraid of humanity
and what we're becoming
fearing nothing but to love
we brag about how we no longer trust
and yet we're dying inside
and it is love which we should trust

I'm afraid of humanity and how we boast about no longer wanting friendships
afraid of whats to come of us
when we are done with over glorified forms of affinity

there will be nothing left but puddles of patron and Hennessy
distorted thoughts and retribution
unethical actions provoked by nothing more than confusion...
of minds programmed all alike
Single handed we make choices based upon society's acceptance

and so, I fear humanity...

and I don't wanna be accepted.

spunky Tai

Freedom

If I could describe all the ways that your love makes me feel 

I'd say it is like air to my lungs 

And a touch that has healed- me

Like a caged bird released into the sky 

You are the freedom I crash into 

And I'm soaring, I'm soaring on high

I'm alive! 

I'm alive! 

A weak mans strength

Weak man, you are strong!

Though you've grown faint from your context 

And your sorrow extends 

One hundred miles long

Weak man, you are strong!

Your skin pale, as it does not feel the sun

Only your eyes- watching...

Days come & days gone

But weak man, you are strong!

Oh, how cold your hands from those stone, cement walls 

You crave exterior strength 

But,

Weak man, you are already strong!

Everyday in accordance with the one before 

Structured routine- no way out!

You "can't take this no more"

But, I say to you...

Weak man, stand up straight!

Search for might within...

It is inside your core

Weak man, quit your moping!

Have you forgotten your faith?

You anticipate saving 

But,

Despair does not save

Your body held still

Than so let it be!

Your body be still-

Your spirit run free

Only a man whose spirit lives hopeless can be confined by misery

Weak man, you are strong!

Do not bow your head in anguish 

cuz all seems to go wrong

Bow steady with grace,

For he is your strength-

Through him, you are strong

Weak man do not weep 

Be not fragile anymore

Weak man you are strong!

Weak man you are strong!

Bumps and Bruises

The hardest part about falling is never the hit... It's getting back up!

Spunky Tai

I WAS LIKED BY EVERYONE...

TILL I STARTED TREATING EVERYONE HOW THEY TREAT ME.

Tendencies

So I have this tendency... 

I tend-to-see...

hearts...

And so, 

I love hard 

I love hard for hearts that never tend to me 

That's my crippling tend-ency.

I have a tend-ency 

I tend to feel more than I know

And in the end it tends-to-be...

that I know nothing

Of the love, I love 

Because it don't belong to me

I have this tendency

A habit if you may

A tendency to wait for hearts that choose to walk away.

YOU GON' HAVE TO STRENGTHEN YOUR FAITH IF YOU PRAYIN FOR MY DOWNFALL... IM STILL FIRMLY STANDING! 

Spunky Tai 

First I Love

As I Love, so too do I live...

As I live, so too do I learn. 

I will always Love first

For it is love that drives all things... It is love that breeds LIFE! 

Spunky Tai 

If ever they ask why...

Because the happiness you bring, no one else can provide

That is why...

I'd swim across the ocean if your love was waiting for me on the other side...

Guard your heart against the strongest army, even if it wasn't mine

Because I've felt your heart beat upon my cheek

and heard the sound of love inside

That is why...

If ever I were forced to choose given two choices to decide...

The death of me or your dishonor...

I'd choose to die a million times 

Because my heart chooses to love you Without restriction, logic or specific reasoning why...

Because true love knows no explanation

Simply, that is why...

"All is fair in Love & War!" 

I may encounter new hearts everyday... Yet still , I prefer the comfort of a love that's gone. 

I can run away to a far, far place In attempt to hide my heart and what it feels ... Yet still, I am forced to turn around and look for you... Thinking; maybe one day you'll come looking for me too.

I can sleep a thousand years...

live in my dreams of broken truth...

And when I awaken... I will still be loving you! 

"Love can not exist where it does not, nor can it be denied were it does." 

I'd been waiting & fell asleep crying,

alone on a bench...

The clouds they were passing...

Keeping the moonlight from glowing

I slept through my sobbing...

till a sudden warmth nudged my cheek

It was a ray of light...shining

It be a brighter day

illuminated by a sun that been hiding...

and slowly I awaken... Spunky Tai

(Poem inspired by photo) (photographer unknown) 

"Some people give their best, but a small few give their all" - unknown 

Don't Go...

I can't make him stay... I can only hope at the very least that he looks passed my imperfections deep enough to see my heart and notice it is unlike any other he's encountered...the only one if it's kind.

Forever Team Tai

There comes a point in your life when u choose not to endure the verbal, emotional or mental mindfucks that others shoot your way. It's a moment when u realize they can hurt u only if you allow them to & for me that time is NOW! Fact of the matter is that ppl outgrow each other in the process of development some grow up while others jus grow left

Truth is a pill not easily swallowed so it doesn't surprise me many choke when I speak. 

I've never been a disrespectful person, I'll spoon feed you vinegar wit a smile on my face... cuz I don't come in flavors for you to like how I taste. 

I don't ever claim to be above or better 

But for many my life is a puzzle of interest

Cuz they always tryna piece that shit together.

I refuse to do it anymore...love others more than what I love me...

So don't expect the royal treatment if you broadcast peasantry. 

I don't owe anyone shit, very less an explanation... I'm content wit who I am...

Couldn't give two fucks about external opinions cuz I'm not seeking validation. 

I choose not to entertain or involve myself wit drama... I'm a one man army that doesn't seek revenge... I leave that shit to karma! 

It's very simple... this I can assure you...

treat me good, I'll treat you better...

shit on me once and I'mma shit on you forever! 

Spunky Tai

The light rejuvenates our spirit but it is in the darkness where we find our strength. If you are weak in darkness,

you haven't been there long enough.

YOU GOTTA LOVE, BECAUSE LOVE IS THE STRONGEST ENERGY WE HUMANS POSESS. IT'S SO EASY TO EXERCISE ANGER, ARROGANCE AND HATE BUT LOVE...LOVE REQUIRES HUMILITY AND RESIGNATION OF THYSELF. STRENGTH CAN ONLY BE FOUND IN LOVE. WE ARE AT OUR STRONGEST POINT WHEN WE ARE LOVING; HENCE WHY WE ARE WILLING AND ABLE TO SUFFER FOR THAT WHICH WE DO LOVE...SO, IF YOU FIND YOURSELF IN NEED OF STRENGTH REMEMBER, YOU POSESS ALL THE ENERGY AND STRENGTH WITHIN...WE NEVER REALLY LOSE LOVE, WE JUST CHOOSE TO IGNORE THE FEELING...SO STOP LOOKING AND START FEELING...AFTER-ALL WE CAN ONLY SEE WHAT WE PROJECT AND PROJECTION TRAVELS FROM THE INSIDE OUT.

SPUNKY TAI