Pieces of Me...

Who Am I?

I am...
a woman, a mother a daughter, a sister.

Yo Soy Mujer!

I am a lover, a fighter, a giver, a friend...
a natural nurturer but, I will go to war for what's mine
I am both hard and soft
at the same damn time

Yo Soy Mujer!

My voice can vibrate laughter with tears in my eyes
I am confusing and interesting
a Nuyorican raised, Afro Caribeña
heart pulsating arroz con habichuelas

frizzy curled hair & almond shaped eyes
my brows worn thick
my culture is rich

with curves that scream come dance down my hips
experience mi salsa
upon the ones that switch
left to right with hypnotic intensity
unforgettable charisma
you gon' remember me!

Yo Soy Mujer!

Papi taught me how to work for mine
Mami always says the one thing that don't wait is time.
snappin fingers, clappin hands we speak with movement
"Shiiiit, I know that's right"

This Queen has strut her stuff in 4 inch heels
carrying the weight of the world on her shoulders
feeling each groove of the concrete struggle beneath
& though the soles of my pretty little feet have felt the burn
of a path built upon generations of inherited pain...
I was built for the blame

Clustered struggle from my Arawakan Indians
en mi bello Puerto Rico
My native tongue not Spanish...but,
Taino

Si nosotros still exist
The Indigenous people

Gold miners & cotton pickers
sun kissed mami's

I am born of Quality!

Yo Soy Mujer!

-Spunky Tai

If I knew then what I know now, 

I'd take five steps back and just slow the fuck down 

I would've listened to Mami when she'd say "don't rush to get old" Cuz now I'm like "damn ma I should've listened" and she's like "yea mija, told you so"

 my feet hurt from all this running 

Tryna keep up with the thing we call life an on going battle & this here's my never ending strife. I've been shattered, broken up into a thousand pieces

Conflicted, restricted, internally bleeding & some of my worst wounds were surprisingly self-made self inflicted, maybe I just wanna feel pain... I think I just might be going fuckin insane cuz while many have hurt me, its myself that blame... "Well gosh what a shame" that's what many would say... But ashamed I am not! Never have been, never will be. The broken up, broken down, Puerto Rican thickness has hit hard on that ground but she's picked herself up and although it's been rough my heads still held high, "up up to the sky" and who I am is what you see and what you see is what you get and I ain't got shit together to perfection but you probably don't either and yes, my tears flow lightly but that don't make me no weaker... Than those who choose to hide behind their pride cuz their afraid to express that their lives are really a hot fuckin mess... So please spare the pep talks, the do's and the dont's I'm struggling like everyone else but I'm doing better than most... So here's to "life" and this new era of normalized insanity of Hollywood hustlers & glorified vanity. Here's to the strip club runners no longer nine to fivers, the new millennium strivers, them up all nighters... Poppin bottles pourin liquor in the "baddest bitches mouths"  u know the ones wit the  fatties and it's ok if they don't jiggle long as you can drop it like its hot and make a twirk just a little and I'm not tryna throw shade nah I tip my hat to those who get in where they fit but I'm not tryna fit in I'm just tryna be me. 

-Tai #MindFucks #SpokenWords #PiecesOfMe #SpeakEasy #JustPoetry

I don't want a love that's silent, no not me! 

Don't want the kind of love that cannot sing; the kind that has no sense of humor whose laughter doesn't fill the air. 

I want a strong love but not a love that's militant and stern; I want playful & free;

Good love that stares deeply and kisses often.

I want a love that pays attention and appreciates;

I want one that forgives quickly and hugs twice longer.

The kind of love that screams 

"that's my best friend", "my favorite person " and "My Love"

-Spunky Tai 

I woke up this morning with a feeling of determination and a recognition of my persistence... 

I woke up feeling confident although never overly confident to keep me from bowing my head in prayer... And that was all I needed... That connection that left me feeling like whether or not it's today or tomorrow... Regardless, when he says it's time...

I AM GOING TO WIN! 

-Spunky Tai

It's usually the ones you love most that hurt you into numbness... They will never acknowledge your pain but they'll be first to notice your indifference.

-Spunky Tai

Don't ever ask someone not to "waste your time"... It's on you not to let them.

-Tai